When you love your friends as much as you love your other friends..
It could get messy.
Because when you’re dealing with two different people coming from contrasting worlds; opposing individuals with distinctive characteristics, they can collide. And you’re there stuck in the middle. Squashed.
We were watching a certain blockbuster movie of a flying tin can, a godly hammer and striped sweatsuit (to name a few) and initially, it was a guys night out (or something..?) It was an epic serum mixture of geek-ish little kids + superheroes. But when you add sugar and spice to the concoction, you don’t need Chemical X for a reaction to happen.
Basically, group X is a bunch of straight up jacks that represents my comically reserved character. They personify my inner-kid; my company on all sorts of monkey business. While group Y is the shade of mild rebelliousness. And perhaps a hint of female attraction. I love them both to bits. But sometimes bits and pieces don’t puzzle in together. Don’t get me wrong, this might not be the case in every circumstance. It’s just unfortunate that it is for me.
I wanted to high-five my boys every time they pummel a helpless goon; exchange significant Marvel factoids. I wanted to hang with my girlfriends some more; loitering carelessly without abandon. But I can’t do both because they can’t do both of me.
This is not a whining rant on how I’m so goddam popular and every one wants a piece of me. This is a slight realization that I maybe living a double standard life.
SONGOFTHEMOMENT: Sweet Disposition (Cover) by Ellie Goulding